Long legs waving back and forth,
I have, at last, found a tailor-made perch to sit and wonder.
The smell of brown bark, nearby pine and some still damp earth
are the scents that I smell, here.
And it is my resting place.
At 50 (now) when I spy a tree limb--strong, and sufficiently horizontal;
close to the ground, my mind goes back to this--the sacred spot,
in the low lying tree just two houses down from my safe, yellow, front-porched Milwaukee bungalow.
In this—my tree limb resting place, I am invisible. I am surely, of the divine. And I am more than a front porch traveler and bigger than a child.
I would sit here…and quietly (and privately) allow my own mind to wander and my own thoughts to spread out some, a bit. In this, my protected and much coveted place, I was allowing my mind to grow. Did the tree know this? Did it feel my groaning, too?
They say that when a tree grows it breaks its bark. Perhaps I too, was breaking my bark.
What better place to do this, than in a tree?
Maybe it was just idle time, but in this, the resting place--
to me, a girl of just eight, or nine and ten, it was legs dangling, arms holding, hair blowing, sunlight dancing, breeze playing, leaf wiggling, one leg flopping…bird singing me-time.
(My mother would say that as a somewhat self-centered, first-born child--I have, perhaps, always been good at this.) And I smile.
But I have found it useful still, to preserve, to hold fast to, and to cultivate my own playful, watchful, solitary, just-for-art eye. For, the more that I look, the more I see, in the splendid world of solitude.
My world is (much) bigger now, but long for-I do, the tree,
and (perhaps) my childhood innocence…
but more than this—
the supreme sense of wonder that it held.
I might add that--
as a still wandering and now-fully-grow’d-up young women,
I am perpetually lingering and in a semi-permanent state
of watchfulness for it.
Or is it that we, each, try…to go back home?
…Me to my tree, and you, to your river.